Looking for that feeling
I feel empty now.
A week with her changed everything.
Just a small glimpse into her life completely changed mine.
The energy, the feeling of being near people again.
Alive again for the first time in a long time.
And I’m back home now.
Restless while not being there.
Everyone else living in slow motion and I used to as well.
Wanting to go back to her, to the feeling being in her world gave me.
With her I see the potential of life. How it could be, should be.
And now all I can think about is that one week.
The week I woke up to life again.
Unable to go back to what it was before.
It’s right there for me to grab, to live again. For so long I’ve been stuck, unable to even see it, and she opened my eyes to it all, just living her own life with me in tow for a bit.
A life of adventure.
Of new friendships.
Of intimacy.
It makes me want to learn to love again, to try at life again.
I didn’t know I was empty, but now I know.
I don’t need to be empty anymore.